is the easiest and hardest
simply because your face is with you forever
and if you happen to be a woman
this face will be more important than
many things you will say and do
no matter how much you try
we have tried to change it
even more so now this obsession with the same faces
feels like an informercial on a tv in the middle of the night
i watch shows and movies from earlier times and notice faces are moving
the strangest thing of all is the mirror cannot even hold it
not fully
the light the beauty the one of kind
we eat for breakfast, lunch, and dinner how it cannot change
or move or shift
even when here for decades of 4s, 5s, 6s and beyond.
i found a senior picture of myself up on a shelf I had forgotten
the picture is older than not
i almost put it up to my face for a picture
in the mirror
to see time
i want to read my own face
and see the life there inside of it
our faces will change
as we have
i want to read my face and see the changes
the things survived
and celebrated
this amazing confidence that can only grow with age
see the 17 year old me was just starting
brave and bold
but still scared in ways I am not now
knowing it will be okay did not live on the brow then
but does now
chasing things a bit more if that be acceptance or love
lived more on the cheeks
on the nose was the judgement of others felt
but my eyes my eyes have always glowed
green blue and changing
they are my mother’s eyes too
i want to read my face
and thank her for changing
and really mean it